Contaminated with you
Sick and derived,
My mind slowly dies,
Pain is strong,
As I forever wish it gone,
As I do you.
You took away years of my life,
Made me cry,
Made my mind die.
Whyd you do it?
Because I have so much more than you?
Because I think of things before you?
Or because Im just me?
At first I thought it was my mind that was dead,
But on 2nd thought,
It was only contaminated with you.
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World
Tears falling from my eyes,
While I wonder why.
It seems there is no reason for these tears.
Just the cruelty of the world.
So sick and deranged it really is.
My eyes are finally open,
To what people have tried to ignore.
The pain of the world,
Weighing down on my shoulders,
As I wonder once more why,
Why there is only one escape from life,
And thats death.
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Shadow of Life
The shadows of life upon us,
Each and every day,
As we grow darker in every way,
Our souls wearing down,
As our bodies move on.
We feel as if weve died,
And never got to know,
The feeling of love,
The feeling of someone caring.
The shadows of life upon our dieing souls,
Bring us to a lonely solitary tear,
Because were sitting in the shadows,
Not trying to escape,
And instead of growing lighter,
We only grow darker.
If only we could escape,
The shadows of life upon us.
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Ode to Jeffy (kinda weird.no it is weird)
A is for angel,
Which you are to me.
B is for bare,
Which you are to the world.
C is for compassionate,
Which you are to your fans.
D is for determination,
Which you show every night.
E is for elegance,
In which you fly through the air.
F is for faded,
Which you will never be.
G is for gorgeous,
Which every woman would agree.
H is for humorous,
Which you are backstage.
I is for intelligence,
Which you show through poetry.
J is for jealous,
Which I am of your girlfriend.
K is for knucklehead,
Which you could sometimes be.
L is for loving,
Which you are to your family.
M is for melodic,
Which your voice sounds.
N is for necessity,
Which you are in my life.
O is for opinions,
Which I would love to hear.
P is for public,
Which is all we know of your life.
Q is for queen,
Which is what I want to be of yours.
R is for rumors,
Which might be true.
S is for slick,
Which I hear you are.
T is for tame,
Which you are not.
U is for uniqueness,
Which you have lots of.
V is for velvet,
Which your skin probably feels of.
W is for white wings,
Which you own.
X is for xtreme,
Which you are.
Y is for you,
Which there is only one of.
Z is for zoo,
Which is what we live in.
And I am for you, Jeff Hardy, Because thats how it must be.
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Cast A Spell
You cast a spell over me,
And it has blossomed into more than a temporary infatuation.
You see,
I cant do anything without a single thought of you,
And what you might be doing.
Because me feelings for you are true,
Because you are you.
The spell you cast,
At first seemed like a cruel joke,
Because I thought I could never be anywhere near you.
But now its the sweetest gift I could ever receive.
If I had to live without you in my life at all,
I would surely die.
One thought of you sends shivers through my spine.
Never have I felt this way before,
And possibly never will I feel this way again,
So I hope one day Ill meet you,
And youll see what youve done.
It will be a glorious day,
Sunny and bright.
Youll pull me aside and tell me how you feel.
Your spell will have been reversed,
And well live happily in perfect harmony together,
Forever.
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Act As You Do
You say I will and then I wont,
You say I do and then I dont,
You confuse me more than words could explain,
You piss me off more than words could say.
Why the hell do you act as you do?
Like you own everything,
Like you own me?
Why cant you just see my P.O.V.
And let it go.
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Never Let You Go
As I sit here watching you sleep,
With your loving arms wrapped around me,
Keeping me close to you,
I realize how lucky I am.
I never thought I would meet,
A guy like you.
So caring,
So loving.
And now there is only one thing for me to say today,
I love you more than words could say,
And Ill never let you go
NEVER!
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But Mainly Because Im Me
...Because I am different from you.
...Because you made me this way.
...Because Im told Im beautiful.
...Because you turn me on.
...Because you said you loved me.
...Because I dont want to be popular.
...Because my life is a part of yours.
...Because I live so far away from society.
...Because this is who I want to be.
...Because I am NOT your little Barbie doll.
But mainly because Im me.
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Poem Of Veronica
(has a gothic Chick drawing with it but I don't have a scanner so it can't be put up)
Into the depths of darkness I travel,
The pain unbearable as the truth,
Penetrates the barrier of me.
I try to hide,
With a few swipes of a razor,
You've said the truth hurts when you aren't "normal",
Well I guess I'm not "normal"
I guess I must stay in the darkness,
With my only friend,
To save me from the truth.
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You
Why is life so miserable when I can't be near you?
Why can't I think of anything but you?
Why are you the only positive thing in my life?
Why can't I be with you?
Why don't I stand out in this zoo?
And why must I love you so much it hurts?
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One And Only Jeff Hardy
If I could feel your tender kiss,
And look into your eyes,
I would be the luckiest woman alive.
If I could hear your wonderful voice,
As I hold your sensitive hands,
What I would do just for that.
If I could touch your soft hair,
Or just be near you,
I would be in heaven.
If I could only have the one and only Jeff Hardy,
I wouldn't be in pain anymore,
Because your the only one for me.
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You said I said
You said you loved me,
I said I didn't love you.
You said why,
I said becuase I no longer do.
You still said why,
I said because my heart doesn't love you.
And you said fine bitch be that way.
This is what happens when you lend your heart to love,
This is what happens when I give up.
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Wipe The Tears
Wipe the tears
And go away
You aren't wanted here
So come back on a rainy day
When I'll need to laugh and play
If you loved me
You'd wipe away the tears
If you loved me
You'd wait for years and years.
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Escape
Can I escape my unexpected life?
Can I escape your painful critsism?
Escaping is all I want to do,
All I can think,
All I can say.
But for the fear of escaping myself,
I crawl back into my little corner.
And I wait for another chance,
to escape without escaping.
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Fade
You came into my life,
and threw everything ina whirl.
But somehow I kept priorities straight.
And its slowly day by day until the mind and body fades away.
I came into your life,
and somehow made it peaceful,
But the day has come for me to leave.
So its slowly day by day until the mind and body fades away.
You tried to throw me off course,
But it didn't work
And its still slowly day by day until the mind and body fades away.
We know we'll all fade away someday,
But when and why are the questions.
So it will always be slowly day by day until the mind and body fades away.
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Tears Flow Freely
As your words start to replay,
Your leaving me on this rainy day.
You said you love me,
And now your fleeing
I fell for your little tricks,
Your Big Game.
Why the tears fall,
I do not know.
But you left me,
Now so long.
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Innertwined
Your life isn't perfect,
But your life is fine.
And I wish it was mine.
You saved my life so many times,
But you probably still don't realize,
There are days I just want to say goodbye to the world.
And your always there to make it better.
I just wanted to tell you,
Our Lives Are Innertwined Forever.
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Goodbye
If life is so great then why does it bring me to tears? Why does it fill me with tears and why does it make me feel like i feel? why does it always make me ask why? and why am i now thinking of saying goodbye to the world, to you, and to me.
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Not in Public
My tears want to glide gently to the floor, but they can't fall yet,not in public. My life has been turned upside down and tossed around and you don't even care. You stand there smiling and laughing no worries in sight, but i worry about if i'll make it through the day or night. i feel as though life is worthless, but i can't let the tears fall yet, not in public
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Why......?
Why on this earth must we walk blindly in fear?
Why on this earth must we not hear the words of wisdom filling the air?
Why on this earth must there be so many questions?
Why on this earth must i wonder if we will meet outside of dreams?
Why on this earth......?
Why in this life......?
Why......?
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Tears Flow Freely
Why can't I just let my tears flow freely from my eyes and show the world the softer side of me? It's like I'm always locked in a world of lies and a lifetime of dreams. If only I could just say "Hey everyone look at who I am on the other side!" and not be scared about what people would think. I go around telling people I don't care what they think of me and what they say about me but when i go home and i'm out of sight i cry but only for a few minutes because i have to be the tuff chick people think i am.So finally i can let the tears flow freely even if its only for a few minutes it keeps me alive and keeps me moving towards my dreams. But i still lie awake at night wondering why, and i will always wonder why unless there is help in my future, unless there is help for me.
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Just Me
I'm laying here in my grass,
Feeling High and mighty,
as I beathe the fresh air.
This is a new feeling,
One I never felt before,
It's almost like i'm a whole new person,
But I'm not, I'm still me,
Nothing's changed about me,
Well except I'm not trying to be anyone anymore,
I'm finally just me.
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Who You Truly Are
Can you imagine yourself, as you truly are deep down inside?
Can you change from what you try to be and what you are?
Can you find a way to love without being loved?
Can you answer my questions as I ask?
Can you tell me who these people are who try to change me try to hurt me?
Can you find your way in a maze unmade and a life of questions?
Can you decide who you truly are instead of letting someone else?
So I ask again,
Can you imagine yourself, as you truly are deep down inside?
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I Love You Too
Every time you say I love you,
It repeats over and over in my head,
And all I can say is I love you too.
I feel so small,
So......unworthy?
So.......I don?now what,
When I am around you.
I can?et you out of my mind,
Everything I say, think, and do,
In someway involves you,
And still all I can say is I love you too.
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Grounded
I?rounded,
For planning to sneak out.
I?rounded,
For yet another month.
I?rounded,
Going out of my mind.
I?rounded,
And in time may soon die.
I?rounded,
And it really sucks.
I?rounded,
And it was my fault.
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Unpredictable
In life you deal with all these unpredictable things,
Death, losing friends, or just anything around you.
You never know what will happen,
Or where your going to go,
Or why your going to do something,
But that is what makes life so exciting,
And that is way I still live today,
Don?ake these things for granted,
Don?ut them down,
Because once you do,
You?going to have hell to pay.
Just remember in life
You never know what will happen next,
And you only know everything is unpredictable.
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In Life
In life
People change
People lie
People die
In life
People cry
People whine
People steal
In life
People are
Different
Different from you and me.
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What do you do?
What do you do
When someone lies to you?
Steals from you?
Or discourages you?
What do you do
When you?all alone?
When you don?ven know who you are?
When you love but aren?ove?
What do you do
In a life so boring
A life that is living
A life that is unwilling?
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If You
What would you do if you were the person who was always laughed at
Always distraught
Always depressed
And always misjudged?
What would you do is you had the chance to save someone?ife,
But were to worried about your own,
Would you do it?
What if you were the one in the wheelchair that everyone stared at
Always being stared at
Always unhappy.
What if you were the lonely little girl lost in the big world.
What if you were me?
And I was you?
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Wonders
Why are we put here?
...Here on this earth.
What is our purpose?
...Besides to find who we are.
How is life different?
...When your one of the stars.
Who is it that loves you?
...Loves you from afar.
Where is it that we go?
...We go when we die.
When is it that we will stop?
...Stop living these lies.
For all these thoughts, wonders, and questions there are answers that one day, someday, in a far away land there will be answers and there will be no more questions.
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I wanna...
I wanna live,
But I wanna die,
Die because of you,
And what you stand for.
I don?anna love,
But I wanna be loved,
Loved because someone cares about me,
And not my looks.
I wanna be happy,
But I wanna cry,
Cry because what you do,
And how you treat me,
And everything in my life revolves around you.
But sometimes things don?ork out my way,
And yet someway,
Somehow,
I make it through every day,
Physically alive,
But mentally dead.
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WhoWhy
Who am I?
Who are you?
Who is she?
Who is he?
Who are we?
Why am I?
Why are you?
Why is she?
Why is he?
Why are we?
What does all this mean?
I don?now, It?ust wonders of a mind, A mind unknown.
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Shut up for a minute
Would everyone just shut up for a minute,
And listen to what I have to say,
Instead of just brushing me off,
And telling me I have nothing important to say,
But they don?now how smart I am,
And they don?now that what I could say,
Could change their lives for the better.
So would everyone just shut up for a minute,
And listen to what I have to say.
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Forever
When you finally find happiness,
You'll lose it in a flash.
When you finally find love,
It will last and last.
When you finally find the missing excitement,
It will be gone forever.
When You finally Find Who You Are,
You'll be here forever.
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I'll Make It!
Why do you always say I won't make it to the top?
Is it because your jealous?
Or do you just not believe in me?
Because one day I will be on top of the world,
And you'll wish you didn't say I wouldn't make it,
I'll have the fortune,
And you'll have nothin,
Now do you still say I won't make it to the top?
Or do you want to support me,
And be part of the team.
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Life/Downhill
My life has gone downhill,
Almost all the way,
But one day life will change,
And everything will be up-up and away,
For now though,
I live life,
Slowly but surely,
Becoming slowly happy,
Slowly very slowly.
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Life/Change
It's funny how things suddenly tend to change. One minute your happy and the next your sad. Another minute your getting along fine with your family the next your in an argument. Nothing makes sense right now, and life isn't right. But I'll get through life and prove everyone wrong and become the star I always knew I could be and life will be great once again.
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Suicidal Friend
Suicide,
what's it mean?
Why do people do it?
Or feel suicidal?
Personally I don't know,
But I do know my best friend is suicidal,
And I don't know how to help her,
So I ask people I trust,
And they say tell an adult,
So I write this poem,
In hopes of answers,
And help for my friend,
And for myself so i can help her.
so why are people suicidal?
We may never know.
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Why???
Why can't my parents except ME??
For ME?
And not try and change me,
And Who I am
I want to be me
And me is all I can be
So why don't they see that,
Instead of their "little" girl,
This may never be answered
But I hope that it is....SOON
And that the question,
"Why can't I just be me?"
May No longer Exist.
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Questions
What am I doing?
Am I normal?
What is normal?
Am I obsessed with being normal?
Or am I just me?
What should I do?
Should I give it all up?
Or prove everyone wrong?
Too many questions,
And too little time.
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Alone, Sad, Scared
I'm sitting here,
Alone, sad, and scared,
Crying because I feel unloved,
I'm all alone,
With no ones friendship,
No ones companionship,
It feels like I'm an empty person,
I have no purpose,
But to find out who I am,
Besides a confused teenager,
Who doesn't know what she is doing.
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Do You Know Her?
People think they know her,
But that isn't really her,
The me she knows,
Is a shy, confused, little girl,
She loves her family,
Yet they're never home,
She has pretty much raised herself,
She is lonely, confused,
Angry and disappointed,
Everyone thinks she's nice,
Or mean,
Or somewhere inbetween,
But they do not know her.
Because she is me.
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Change
To some people change is good,
But to some its bad,
To me it's just scary,
I don't know what's to come,
Or what I'm going to lose,
My friends and family are changing rapidly,
Yet "I" seem out of place,
I'm the same old me,
With the same old story,
And the same old life,
All I want is to change,
And be someone new!
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You're Wrong
You look at me like I'm a slut,
And talk to me like I belong to you,
Well your wrong,
I'm an independent woman,
Who wants to do things HER way,
And NOT yours!
If I could have my way,
I'd have deleted you from my day to day,
But your still here,
Just one last thing,
I'm not what you think.
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You Are...............
As I sit here,
Listening to the song that was once ours,
I think of the good times and the bad,
I realize without you in my life,
Life is dull and boring,
You are the:
Excitement,
Enthusiasm,
And the encouragement,
And for that,
I love and respect you,
Whether I show it or not.
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Tell Me
What is true love?
Is it looks?
Popularity?
Making out?
Or is it,
When 2 peoples personalities are alike,
And they are drawn to each other?
That magical feeling you get when you see them looking at you?
The way they can always make you smile when your down?
Well I can tell you this,
All that matters is what your heart says,
So if you think it's true love,
Maybe it is,
But then again maybe not.
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Always And Forever
As I sit here and stare,
Blankly into space,
I think of you,
Wondering why,
I need you so much,
You know I need you,
Yet you play me like a fool,
With or without her,
It still doesn't change,
The way I feel,
You and me,
Will always be together,
Always and Forever.
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Angel Of Mine
You came out of nowhere,
When I needed you most,
Just breaking off from a boyfriend,
And finding the sweetest guy,
Every girls dream,
You are my angel,
Everyday you make me smile,
And laugh,
And you never make me sad,
I love you with all my heart,
You are my angel.
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Your Eyes
When I look into your eyes,
I see your soul,
I see you,
Not just your blue eyes,
Because those eyes belong to her,
She says she loves you,
But is it true?
I'd never hurt you,
Because if I do,
I'd hurt myself too,
I guess what I'm trying to say,
Is.....................................................
I LOVE YOU!
Not just your blue eyes,
Your sexy body,
Or your popularity,
But because of you,
Your personality,
Your will to forgive,
Everything about you,
Is beautiful to me!!
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In Love With You
Oh No!
Exactly what I didn't want to happen,
Has happened.
I'm in love with you again,
Or at least I think I am, Why does this always happen???
It seems I have a "thing" for you,
My friends say they know I love you,
But think that its unreal,
Because its happened every minute,
Of every year,
And every time I see you.
Why does this have to happen???
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Thinking Of You
As I lay my head,
Upon my bed,
I think of you,
And ways to say,
I love you,
And I need you,
In every way I try,
I could never pass you by,
Thinking of the past summer,
The good times and the bad,
And all the fun we had,
It makes me want to do it,
All over again,
Thinking of you,
Wishing you were here,
Because I need you now,
More than ever before,
You are there,
And I am here,
Please,
Oh please,
Come back,
And save me from the terrors and tears,
Of my life,
Because all I need right now is.............................
YOU!!!
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