Sound Asleep
Sitting on the porch...Scared to ring the bell.
I wait for you to see me...i sit scared as hell.
Rocking in the chair...hoping the squeaks bring you near.
I wait for you to hear me...im alone so filled
....with fear.
Pacing on the hard wood...not knowing what to say.
When you see me pacing...when you make your way.
Laying on your welcome mat...not felling very welcome.
I guess your in there sleeping...your so peaceful
...when you sleep.
Freezing on the outside...so cold but yet so sweet.
Your bodies on the inside...i'd kill to feel your heat.
Dialing on my phone...the number of your phone.
I can't mash send...so now I'm
...going home.
Walking towards my car...I'm down about myself.
Getting in my car...I want to kill myself.
You make me feel complete...At the same time I'm me.
I'm so always not complete...without you I'm
...never free.
Free from depressive states...of mind,body,and soul.
Free from sad days with me...free from sad
...days alone.
Turning my ignition switch...bright lights start shining through.
My eyes are blinded momentarily.....Holy Shit....
...its you!
Sitting on the porch with you...not worried about the bell.
We're looking into each others eyes...
I'm no longer scared as hell.
This night will be a memory...
One thats sure to keep.
I didn't want to wake you...
I thought you were
Sound asleep.
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Inspired By Feeling
Was he nervous or was he scared?
Was she wiling or was she dared?
Or is it a feeling that we can't explain.........
Maybe a feeling........exchanged for pain.........
Is this the answer or is this the clue?
Would she ask the question...................?
Would she control you?
If it's just a feeling that may soon pass................
It could become the feeling that seems to last.
How could we be different if we didn't even know...........
The facts of life upon us...........The facts of life that grow.
Could it be the feeling that we once remembered well-----
Or could it be a feeling..........."You know,exciting mail?"
I can't believe I live here....... each and every day.
Wondering whats next...............especially what to say.
I think its a feeling of love and jealousy..........
I feel it is the feeling that takes control of me-----
So,were you nervous or was it a scare?
Together we were willing-----
And forever, I still care.
Yes it is that feeling of joy, and happiness.
That feeling we all wish for......... so please let me possess................
And if you're really out there-----
Then I will pray to feel-----
Your love and be your witness...............
Thank God! This feeling is real.
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Empty Tank
Here I am again... tired from not sleeping...
Sad from not lovein.
I feel miserable again... here on this plane...
Here on this earth.
I've done it again...I've stayed out all night.
I feel it again...I dred this flight.
Why?Because I'm sick....
Sick of being owned...
I write because I'm sick...
Sick of being known
If I was normal...
Would she like me the same?
If I was just a stock boy...
Would she still enjoy my name?
I'd like to think she does and would...
I believe in her and believe in me she should.
I'm gonna lean my head against this window...
Close my eyes and go to sleep.
I'll wake up in the next town...
With thoughts beyond deep.
The days will go by I can only look back...
At the good times...the fun
At the bad times...the fun.
I wonder if she misses me as much as I miss her...
I wonder if she waits to see me...
I wonder if she waits?
I'd like to think she did and would...
I believe in her and believe in me she should.
My hear is so curious...
My mind is so blank...
Without you I'm lost...
I am an empty tank.
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What I Want?
Another world......................
Is where I want to go!
Another life...........................
Is what I want to show!
Another face........................
Is what I want to feel!
Another card...................
Is what I want to deal!
Another Person....................
Is who I want to be!
Another lover.........................
Is who I want to see!
Another hand.......................
Is what I want to hold!
Another business................
Is what I want to fold!
Another sickness........................
Is what I want to end!
Another straight line.........................
Is what I want to bend!
Another power............................
Is what I want to have!
Another lucky number..................
Is what I want to grab!
Another time........................
I don't know what I want?
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Today Or When
Today I woke up with a hurting heart,but it wasn't from medical problems.It was from a forgotten love of my past that painfully reentered my dreams. During these dreams, I felt as if I were reborn. I felt the feeling of love again without a worry in the world. it was she who made me happy, It was she who opened my heart and committed murder to all my pain. However,this murder wasn't total death. The pain came back and it came back to stay. Now it's infected and peroxide doesn't even foam............so maybe I'm not normal?I'll probably never see her again in this life unless she continues to peacefully visit my dreams. If she does, maybe one day I can stay, stay with her in another world, stay with her another time, stay with her by not waking up............ at least my heart will never hurt again!
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It Made No Sense
It was like leather sticks with mushroom coating.
Like cow tongue licks with weather side roaming.
A naked watch that was watching me.
A lever to pull that grew like a tree.
Slowly but surely the muscles were fat.
Uplifting but low...the owner was a rat.
Sold to the corner where the slobber sets in.
Its wet and smells bad...Like a few of our friends.
It was like a condom...
That was made of stone.
A cracker of wisdom that was so damn old.
Like crows it was...
Washed with no rinse.
Like me it was.
It made no sense.
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Reaching In
Let's say your name was Reaching In...
Lets say you were given this power.
A power that made you super...
A power that made you more than me...
A power that nobody else could have...
A power that only you could see...
A vibe that only you could feel...
A move that only you could perform...
A card that only you could deal...
A cold heart that only you could make warmer.
Lets say your name was reaching in...
Lets say you were given this choice.
A choice that made you think...
A choice that made you fit out...
A choice that made you scared...
A choice that made you doubt...
A bad that only you could make good
A crime that only you could steal...
A scene that makes you wish you could...
A hurt that only you could heal,
Lets say you had this power...
Lets ask?
Would you still be reaching in?
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What If?Again.........
What if you were that overweight person sitting in the corner,thinking everyone in the room has looked at you at least once and had something negative to say?
What if you were one half of that elderly couple that was wanting so badly to be young again,but were still so cool?
What if you were the patient laying in a hospital bed not knowing if you were going to live or die?
What if you had a chance to save somebody else's life, but you wussed out because you were too worried about your own?
Put yourself in other people's world's, experience the look through other people's eyes, learn the territory, and make yourself at home. If you can truly understand and overcome this obstacle, then maybe one day we will all be equal, maybe one day we will all agree on decisions,maybe one day our worries won't be problems.
What if again?
Our journey begins.
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Heroes
We fly inside as if we are never coming back.
We fly outside as if there were no tommorow.
We think without thinking...........we rise!
We respond without responding...........We Leave!
We live this life as if we are in...................sane!
We starve without starving................we continue!
We became without becoming................we cherish!
We always expect the overwhelming unexpected.
We cry without crying.....................we act!
We save without saving................we pretend!
We run for you with thoughts of your life ending.
We provide without providing..................we wait!
We extend without extending...................we stay!
We are the choosen few who save tommorows.
We grow without growing.................we maintain!
We help without helping.....................we are?
The ones who risk our birthdays for yours.
The ones who risk our existance for the world.
We follow danger,where ever it goes.
We are believers,we are..................
Heroes!
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Impossible Of Me!
Being who I am...........
Is truly a gift of God!
Being who we are together............
Is truly a gift of love!
I hear that God loves us all
I hear that love can capture anyones heart.................
But seperating the good from the bad
Seems like an unwinnable game to me.
We can't just expect to be alike.
We can't just expect to get along.
All we can expect is the unexpected.
Things that will blow our minds!
Things that will take our souls!
Things that will make us happy.......................
Things that will make us sad..............................
These things are nothing we know.
Hell!They might not even exist!
If God and love have a lot in common
The impossible will be proven wrong.
The word impossible will never function again!
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